Photo Lynn took for Mother's Day 2005
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| 1 of countless guardian angel ornaments decorating our mother's Christmas tree this year. 1 of the things Lynn & I most looked forward to during the holidays as children was when we all decorated our tree together while listening to Christmas music. |
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| The start of Lynn's garden made for her by our mother |
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| Lynn's painting behind the angel gift I gave our mom |
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| There's no better description for Lynn |
Although she passed at 43 on Oct. 15, 2006, today would have been my oldest sister's 48th birthday. Without her here, there is still a void in my life that cannot be described or filled. Despite all the times I'd cry when she got a spanking...and she'd laugh when I got them...Despite the numerous other mean things she'd sometimes do...the gut-wrenching yelling & countless times I wanted to stop speaking to her...forever...but she'd always get me to forgive her...Despite all the jealousies & sibling rivalry...a sister is one you can never stop loving...for long. She's the one who chased a friend with a baseball bat when she thought he'd made me cry...despite how many times she'd done it. She's the one who would tell me in disgust to "stop being a baby" as our Greyhound bus drove us further away from our mother each summer--as she wiped her own tears & then let me lay my head on her shoulder or lap to fall asleep...then, during car rides, & while watching TV...She's the one who'd yell at me one minute & be sweet as pie the next...One year, our mother bought us each a sibling rivalry Christmas ornament. (We don't know what happened to hers.) I'm so glad we made amends & though there were still always some times of closeness as children, we really became closer than ever in our last decade together, after my middle sister passed. I know that come spring, she'll be amongst the butterflies fluttering about our yard and gardens, including the one seen here that our mother made for her the spring before she passed so she could view it, even once bedridden. I know she is as happy-go-lucky where she is now, as she usually was when here, and I know (since she told me shortly before leaving), that this guardian angel wants nothing more than for me to be happy as well...
